Stress knocks me out.

Posted on Friday, April 10, 2009 Comments (1)

My dad’s in the hospital again. The fourth time in two months. And I’m stressed. I didn’t do anything but snooze last night and both nights before I woke up in the middle of the night and had to get out of bed. The first one has nothing to do with the others, but I digress.

I think my father’s going to die soon. And it scares the shit out of me. What would I do without him? I think a large part of me would die with him. I’m not prepared yet. I thought he’d live to be 100. He always seemed so invincible. Yet, I digress again.

My issue is stress. I’m stressed out about the party and I’m stressed out about money and I’m stressed out that my computer is not working properly. The memory keeps having a problem with the largeness of my book and won’t let me save changes to it and ladalada.

I’m trying to breathe. The kids are pretty much staying out my way. They know Mommy’s “sick”. Just great. I don’t want them to have issues some day because Mommy gets “sick” more than other people.

So, I’m stressed. I try to breathe.

I think I’m finally tired. Maybe I’ll go try and catch a nap if I can.

See ya on the flipside.