My dad visits
My dad's coming to visit today. Therefore my cigarette smoking has increased and I'm anxious as hell.
Another time that my dad came to visit he left after a fierce argument and we agreed never to speak again. Everytime he comes to visit I think it'll happen again and that will be the end of our relationship. He's the only parent I keep in regular contact with and I would just die if our relationship ended. So, every time he visits I get anxious until I see and hear him and I know what mood he's in. I think he's a bit bipolar, but he would never admit it or go see a shrink.
I don't know what to do with this anxiety. I guess I'll turn to xanax again today and hope it helps.
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Another time that my dad came to visit he left after a fierce argument and we agreed never to speak again. Everytime he comes to visit I think it'll happen again and that will be the end of our relationship. He's the only parent I keep in regular contact with and I would just die if our relationship ended. So, every time he visits I get anxious until I see and hear him and I know what mood he's in. I think he's a bit bipolar, but he would never admit it or go see a shrink.
I don't know what to do with this anxiety. I guess I'll turn to xanax again today and hope it helps.
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I understand what you're going through, at least to some extent. My father and I haven't spoken in three years. We had a major falling through which ended in getting a protective order against me. Some days I wish I still talked to him. I miss my daddy. If we ever do start talking again, I know I'll be terrified that I'll say just the wrong thing and he'll go and get an order again
Whoa! Awesome blog girl! I love it.
I am going to have to take the time to really look at your blog.
Hope all is well.
Tery (Dreamwriter)
BPD--Thanks for the support. I'm sorry to hear about you and your dad. I hope it gets better soon.
Tery--Hey, girl! Thanks for stopping by. It's good to hear from you!
Chica
I think people with bipolar universally have relationship issues. Your story sounds like one I've heard several times before. You are not alone in your struggles. I feel for you. Good luck with your visit.
I found that the best way for me to diffuse some of the anxiety that will likely build to conflict is to talk early on about it. Something like, "I'm really glad your here, I'm really nervous that we might fight, and I don't want to lose you again." It sounds weak, and took me many attempts to trust myself enough to do it. But I now have a friendship that has weathered many storms. And I was previously ready to write it off as just another bridge I had burned.
Seriously. Good luck.
Dion
I thought you might be interested in participating in the first annual Being Bipolar Awareness Month during February 2009. You can find more information at:
http://beingbipolar.today.com/2009/01/16/being-bipolar-i-want-to-hear-about-you/
Please help us increase awareness and reduce th stigma to create a more supportive environment for those of us who suffer from bipolar disorder.
My relationship with my mother causes me great anxiety too. Every time the phone rings, I panic, afraid that it's going to be her. She doesn't understand my bipolar and expects way more than I can deliver. It's very frustrating.
All the best,
Jane
Hey lady! It's me, Terra. I'm back with a new blog address, and I wanted to touch base with you! I hope you visit and add me back to your blog roll.