I'm a Dreamer
If you can dream it you can do it. I dream that one day I will be free of my overwhelming mood swings. I take my medications as prescribed. I often feel like my life is in limbo. When will the mood swings stop?
I dream of a time where I can handle life better. I get knocked down and I get up, but is it enough? I dream of a time where I can handle work and home life without the stress evoking another episode. It's in there, somewhere inside me. I just have to have the nerve to find it.
I think that fear holds me back from achieving my dreams. I feel like I've had so much failure in my life. I failed at college. I kept withdrawing from classes because the stress overwhelmed me. Although I would like to go back, there are too many obstacles to get back to it. I have two children who depend on me to be here. They have to be my priorities. However, how do I get back to my dreams?
For now some of my dreams have to be put on hold. Instead, I'll dream of helping others. I'm still waiting for the NAMI In Our Own Voice program to start so I can be part of that. I have that to look forward to. It's a passion of mine to help others. And that's a good dream.
A girl. Exploring the world of Bipolar Disorder one day at a time. Informing and educating the public about mental illness.
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© 2009 Cristina C. Fender
