Help
I'm becoming increasingly angry and belligerent. I know why this is happening to me. Now how do I stop it?
When I was six I was abandoned by my mother. When I was sixteen I was abandoned by my grandmother. Every year I relive the pain of these betrayals. Every year I become angry and then, once I realize why I'm angry, I become sad and then suicidal.
I thought this year would be different because I'm on these medications, but I find myself slipping into old patterns. I want different for myself and my family this year.
I put in a call to my psychiatrist to change meds. I think I'll call my old therapist and make an appointment. I know I need help. I just hate to get it.
When I was six I was abandoned by my mother. When I was sixteen I was abandoned by my grandmother. Every year I relive the pain of these betrayals. Every year I become angry and then, once I realize why I'm angry, I become sad and then suicidal.
I thought this year would be different because I'm on these medications, but I find myself slipping into old patterns. I want different for myself and my family this year.
I put in a call to my psychiatrist to change meds. I think I'll call my old therapist and make an appointment. I know I need help. I just hate to get it.
Hi Chica,
I wish I had something better to say, but you know me I tell it like it is. You know all that angry that just comes out it all stems from those abandonments and earlier. Medications are going to do nothing without therapy and working through the pain and anger toward those who abandoned you. I am so sorry that you have so much pain and anger caused by those who should have been there for you.
What you are feeling and doing is really normal given your situation and as much as you don't like it...you must get help for you and your family. I know you and you can get through this. I am...it sucks. But, it is well worth it and you are not alone.
Sometimes a change in meds can help. Don't be hard on yourself, you don't have much control in this situation. Hope you feel better.
Dear Chica,
I think the best thing to do is to see your therapist. I don't believe that a change in medication can relieve a situation that is clearly a reason for you to feel angry. But, over time, perhaps you'll be able to "be done with it" by talking or writing about it.
Prayers and hugs from Los Angeles!
Susan
Hi
I think we cannot blame to anyone because it is a natural law in this world.
Whew.... Heavy stuff. I can't begin to imagine how difficult it must be to deal with that kind of abandonment.
You will get through this.
Put yourself at the head of the line for now. Take care of you.
Do something, anything, everyday that will help you get better.
Regarding your meds, with the guidance of a professional it can be helpful to try varying doses or types of meds.
I wish you only the best!
Dirk