Don't Stop Believing
I've been sick this week with ear infections and a wheezing cough. I went to see my doctor. He wanted to put me on steroids, but said that might influence my sleeping patterns and send me into mania. I opted for a lesser option. God knows I don't need to go up and down.
I spent yesterday in bed all day trying to shake this thing. But my ears are still stopped up. Hopefully one more day of antibiotic will kick me back into gear. I hate being sick. I'm the Mama, I'm supposed to be here every minute for my kids. Not in bed with a stupid cold!
My sleep patterns are a little off this week, too, because of my cold. I try to make up for it by taking naps in the afternoon when my little one is asleep. I just hope my Lithium keeps me in check and there will not be any up and down in my moods.
I have to believe that they'll work. I just have to believe and I'll be okay. That's half the battle against Bipolar.
Everyday is a battle against Bipolar. Sometimes I win and sometimes I lose, but I have to get back up and work harder. I can't give up. I have to keep trying. This is my life and I have much to be thankful for. I need to hold onto that feeling when I feel like giving up. I have to believe that there is more out there for me. I have to believe that, just like there are bad days, there are also good days waiting for me. I'm not giving up. I can't stop believing.
About the Author: Cristina C. Fender, 34, is rapidly becoming an expert on Bipolar Disorder. She has been researching Bipolar Disorder and blogging about her own experiences for several years. At age 21 she was diagnosed with depression and saw psychiatrists for over ten years before she was correctly diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder I. Her vision for writing at Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar is to inform and educate the public about mental illness. Feel free to Email Cristina a comment or a question.Share Your Own Bipolar Story. Click here to Subscribe in a Reader.
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