Sleepless in La La Ville
I can't sleep. I took 2 Xanax and an Ambien and I can't sleep. My skin feels like it's vibratating--it's felt like that all fucking day.
I'm anxious and it's keeping me awake at night. I think tomorrow will be a sleep in day. I have to be kind to myself in times like these or I'm apt to trigger an episode.
I find it mildly humourous that I use terminology like trigger and episode. I've been in the business of trying to be well now for over two years and I finally can speak about bipolar as if it was in the third person. It's not who I am, but what I am.
What I am right now is tired. My iPod's finished downloading a lot of New Age crap that should help me sleep. So, Laterz!
I'm anxious and it's keeping me awake at night. I think tomorrow will be a sleep in day. I have to be kind to myself in times like these or I'm apt to trigger an episode.
I find it mildly humourous that I use terminology like trigger and episode. I've been in the business of trying to be well now for over two years and I finally can speak about bipolar as if it was in the third person. It's not who I am, but what I am.
What I am right now is tired. My iPod's finished downloading a lot of New Age crap that should help me sleep. So, Laterz!
That feeling of not being able to sleep is awful, I feel for ya hun. Even despite my many techniques I've picked up to help me sleep (lavender aromatherapy, chamomile and honey tea, alcohol, ambient music, sex, reading, writing...) sometimes just nothing will work. I hope you manage to get a good night sleep tonight!
I hope you get some rest. Nothing aggravates a bad mood like sleep deprivation. I tend to fall asleep whenever I meditate. Not the intent, but it might help here.